What in the world have I done....

So lately I've been having a hard time connecting with my "friends". It seems as though all of these people who have promised to be there for everything suddenly have no time. No matter how far in advance I plan or how I hard I work to make it happen it just never does. I'm wondering if this is a problem with me. Maybe I have enabled people by always planning the activities or making time to see or contact others. That must be it....I am too accommodating to people. I spend too much time trying to fit my life into others schedules so that they will talk/or hang out with me. It's not that I blame them. I understand that people have other lives but would it really kill anyone to be with a friend for just an hour or two. I supposed it might be...sorry, I'm ranting...this has been a serious issue on my mind though. A serious issue mostly because it has happened time and time again and I just can't seem to stop it. This is a vicious cycle of life for me and I'm wondering what in the heck I am doing so wrong....any advice would be great....maybe I'm just to whiny or something but I try not to be....

Just a Glimpse....

I've been thinking a lot lately about the course of my life. When I was a kid I wanted to be a million different things. Now I have no idea what I want to be. This issue does not only frustrate me but also my parent's greatly. I've tried to get into liking something as a career and I just can't do it. I've come to the conclusion that it doesn't much matter what I choose to do as long as I like it and I do it well. There is much trusting in the Lord that all will work out according to plan. During the past two years, I have met so many people and grown so much. There is very little doubt that the Lord has placed every person in my life for a reason and while sometimes it hurts to think back on things of the past I am grateful for the moments I spent with people who taught me more about myself. One thing I know for sure, no matter what lies in store for me in the next year or years to come I can always know that I am one thing....a daughter of God. No matter how hard the world will try to take the knowledge away from me I cannot falter and lose sight of that. There are so many things ahead of me and I cannot give up. Whatever I choose to be in life I must remember to keep the Lord in my life. He will direct me to good and lead me away from those things that will only harm me. He has not lead me astray so far....that is not to say it has always been easy in life. I am so grateful for the knowledge I have of a living Savior in Jesus Christ who is willing to intercede in my behalf. He has already made up for my mistakes if I will but to my part I can be clean at the last day and stand before God to be judged. I will not give up and I cannot give up.....